Call me Monica, I'm a Transsexual, as you know by now.
Anyway... I was raised in a nice home with brothers and sister. Mommy was pretty much in control and because we also had a large lot, we played a lot within the family. We used to play all sort of games, being astronaut, cowboy and so on, but sister being the oldest we played many times girls stuff too, like being mommy and taking care of dolls, I felt nothing wrong or special with that, jst a play. But one day, I was about 10, I was playing mommy and my older brother was daddy and we had a baby. We had played that before, but this time he said we were going to the beach, (was rainning outside) we played in one room, our beach tent was a blanket covering a table, we were wearing kids shorts, but my brother said I had to fold my short's legs all the way up, to look like a bikini, I never had any thought of wearing girls clothes, was just a play and inside the "tent" I folded my shorts leaving plenty showing off, it felt OK. I grabbed my doll and when I went out of the tent I felt like I was in a real beach, feeling shy because I had my ass showing off, but feeling great, feeling like being desired, nothing happened with my brother, but even him had eyes to my ass, I was in heaven. That day, without knowing, I had become a Transsexual. After that I went to the "beach" many times, was the only place I would feel like that.
Then I started to "try on" my mom's panties in the bathroom, looking myself in the mirror. I also tried her swimsuits. And I felt I needed more. I'd do anything possible to stay home alone. I started to try mom's make-up and of course my sister's stuff, she had a baby-doll and panties set I just loved, I'd dress up and walk around the house and outside, no one could see our yard. It became my secret, but made me so very happy. I wouldn't dare to go public, and I had a candle as my boyfriend. I started to get my own stuff from a "give away" my mom would collect for the poor, I'd check there for panties and nylons, girl's stuff you know, all top secret.
That's how it started with me, I know when, I know how, but I don't know why. Although I know, when I started crossdressing I felt like I was in another dimension, it gave me such a satisfaction that I decided to live as a woman since my teenager years.
Today I live as a woman 24/7, I'm very happy!
